Below are the unplanned leaves (Emergency Leave and Sick Leave) that I took for the last month, until this week. Looks pretty bad huh. But trust me, all of those taken due to my health problem.
Anyway, as a matter of fact, I just got out from the meeting with my boss and my HR Manager scrutinizing me of such a bad pattern.
Well, I do understand their motive. Professionally thinking, this is the session where I can discuss things that bothering me at work, or my motivation at work has fallen, or I’m facing any health issue, etc, and find ways to solve that.
But, I’m also just another human being, that would feel discontented when people start to analyze and judging you.
And boy I keep thinking what is the thing that makes me deserve this kind of treatment after what I’ve done. I sacrifice not to take leave on the very perfect time for this during CNY (i.e take only 3 days leave, and you get leave 10 days in a row – plus Federal Teritory Day) since all of the programmers were on leave this time, and I want to be around to support any unforeseen things.
But hey, how I learn that people won’t even notice you when you are behaving good, but start to put a spotlight on you when you’ve done just a little mistake.
But don’t worry, my professional sense is stronger in this case.